Troubling matters NOT

I wanted to start off this post by saying : "Recently, there have been a lot of troubling matters blah blah blah blah blah..." but I decided not to because I've been repeating that so much!

I can't believe it's already April!!! 'O' levels are coming.... Okay I know I'm exaggerrating, it's still quite a few months away but I'm so stresssssseeeeedddddd :( And I've been experiencing nostalgia these few weeks. It's already 07/04/10. Around this time last year I was so flustered by some matter. It seemed so important and significant then, but I actually totally forgot about it this year, until today. A friend had to remind me about it -.-, indirectly. Some people are just so insensitive!

Sometimes I wonder if that means I've already gotten over some things, but apparently I haven't. At least not fully. Some wounds take a really long time to heal. Maybe some don't even ever heal completely, but even so I must persevere. Amidst the bitterness I feel towards you, there's also a twinge of envy. How are you able to be so unaffected and nonchalant about it?

Regret is torturous.

Anyway, I have to admit that life is pretty good for me lately. I have a lot of homework to catch up with and complete. BUT BUT BUT I'M SOMEWHAT HAPPIER! :) That's a good thing! Someone once told me that celebrating every good thing that happens to you, whether small or big will make you a content person. Therefore, I'm trying that now.

I love my friends, every single one, for the joys they bring to me in school, no matter how insignificant the matter seems. A little laughter, jokes, helping to pick up a dropped pencil ; sometimes, the most important things are what seem so insignificant.

While helping MJ with his music, he introduced this beautiful song to me: Forgiven by Within Temptation.

Couldn't save you from the start
Love you so it hurts my soul
Can you forgive me for trying again?
Your silence makes me hold my breath
Oh, time has passed you by
Oh, for so long I've tried to shield you from the world
Oh, you couldn't face the freedom on your own
Here I am left in silence
You gave up the fight, you left me behind
All that's done's forgiven
You'll always be mine, I know deep inside
All that's done's forgiven
I watched the clouds drifting away
Still the sun can't warm my face
I know it was destined to go wrong
You were looking for the great escape
To chase your demons away
Oh, for so long I've tried to shield you from the world
Oh, you couldn't face the freedom on your own
And here I am left in silence
You gave up the fight, you left me behind
All that's done's forgiven
You'll always be mine, I know deep inside
All that's done's forgiven
I've been so lost since you've gone
Why not me before you?
Why did fate deceive me?
Everything turned out so wrong
Why did you leave me in silence?
You gave up the fight, you left me behind
All that's done's forgiven
You'll always be mine, I know deep inside
All that's done's forgiven...

Why are we always pretending to be what we aren't?

WOO HOO my mum totally packed my wardrobe for me today :D It was so disgustingly dirty and messy! Love my mum, I think she's the only person who'd be willing to do that.